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27 January 2006
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it's been one long week and it's gonna be a long long post. prepare yourself.a maths test was real shitty and crappy. like, what the fuck. be prepared to fail lah. PAL workshop was kind of fun. talked with feika and nad after the whole thing. cried while telling feika the online story i read. then, i and feika went under the block and started camwhoring a little. decided to migrate to mac, and met amin and afiq. wednesday, was crap. and fun. after guides, i met up with the normal NCC guys to go eat. and as usual, there will be some nonsense assholes who won't eat. elias,chiak and iggie , decided not to go to Mac when feika & jo was there! so they went to eat at KFC. iggie won't let me go Mac. urgh. i left anyway. sat with the other peeps. and suddenly, i gained like adeqs from nowhere. nyehahah. amin, afiq, wan.. (: went back to KFC to meet the guys and they refused to let me sit, cos they put their bags at my seat! ): chiak and elias ended up taking each other's photo. -.- iggie, kinda mistook his phone for mine! cos he won't let me see my own phone when jo sms'd. urgh. and he replied. sheeesh. i started this whole thing. with matthew. i wanted to tell him something, but then decided against it. yana : matthew! matthew : ah? what.? yana : oh. nothing lah. amos : ( laughing) yana bastard sia. call then dunwan say. so all the way from the NCC room to the gate, most of the guys went, amos : matthew! nothing. matthew : yana! nothing. and the list goes on. -.- the next day, it was crap! matthew and i cudn't stop saying that to one another. and it was contagious! other peeps got it from us too! esp my dear JOANNE. haha. it was after sch, and jo was at the class. i called her and she kinda ran/jogged from her class to me. yana : JOANNE! jo : [running/jogging] yana: [when she's near ; laughing ] oh. nothing. jo : =.=" matthew was inside the class, and i told him. yana : matthew! i call joanne, then she walk here and i said "nothing" sia! [LAUGHING] matthew : haha. yana bastard sia. and we both kept laughing. how nice. we're great partners. during english presentation, huiying teared. and moved another huiying. (: jonathan's presentation just killed me and made both me and nette cry. we laughed, and cried. and urgh. it's an irony. he left all of us, when i was 1. that makes it 14/15years ago. yet, the pain and hurt felt still feel so fresh, so wounded. i miss him alot. why did he have to leave? i've yet to get to know him, to love him, to be pampered by him. having a picture with him, but not knowing him, not being able to call him "Dada", it just hurts. he left too early. i want him back. it's dumb. all these years, i've never felt the pain of him not being here with me. but with jonathan's topic, it just brought all the pain out from deep within. with his line, "some of you might not have the fortune of meeting your grandparents, " true enough, i don't. eventhough, i still have the other 3, who are still with me, this very moment, standing tall and proud. i miss Dada. i want to get to know him. i want to see his smile. well, it's time i got over it. I LOVE YOU DADA. i do. (: cried with feika when i saw her after sch outside. adhah, feika & nad. you're great. i loveYOU, i really do. plus JO and ZHENXU. (: ooh, and AFIQ,AMIN & WAN. for making me laugh. PLUS all the others who were there, like. urh. sec4MAN, dzul, muhd, sec3MAN, zahran, and plusplus lah. you guys entertained me. PLUSS using my cam to take u all PK. haha. today was .. erh. okay. late & din give a fuck. =) afiq's gotta chill. i've updated the photos. but it din come out. wtf. whatever. next post. i should have kept it all inside me but somehow, i just lost myself, and i lost it. |
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nor liyana mohd khalis.i'm always in love with pretty boys. like as if i don't learn from experience, i always give in to sweet words. and i never learn from the past. i'm vulnerable to hurt, but i'd like to believe i'm stronger than i seem. jauh di dasar hatiku, aku tahu aku masih kasihimu dan menyintaimu. namun kau sudah berpunya, kau sudah bercinta. disini kita berakhir, tergantung segala cerita dan kisah lama. wishlist
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